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[22 Sep 2005|11:05am] |
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it was perfect
and nothing else mattered
and aj loved it
and i have never freaked out that much
i screamed like i was giving birth to a 10 year old
aj tried to get me to stand and i just fell down
i pulled my hair out
my eyes were dialated
i was hyperventilating
my heart beat was irregular
i was jolting because i was shaking so bad
and everyone was looking at me
a man gave me his binoculars
me and aj talked to lots of fans
and aj absolutely loved it
he said paul was incredible
and he will never under estimate my role-model again
but it was perfect
and i have details
but i'm depressed and i'm scared to talk about it
so i'm going on hiatus
because i can barely get out of bed
i'll give you exact details when i get back
but it was perfect
and nothing else mattered
hyl*
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| This journal is no longer open to anyone but me: |
[21 Jun 2005|02:14pm] |
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I've made this journal private. I've deleted my friends list, so please take me off of your list as well! It just got way too depressing here and everything. I will still be at ana_banana, but I am not sure a lot of you will want to read that one because it is strictly Ana and The Beatles/Ringo.
I love The Beatles. They are my life and Ringo is everything to me. I have never loved anyone as much as I love him. That is simply how it is, so take me or leave me for what I am. You don't have to like it, you don't have to approve of it, but you better respect it because that is who I am and to those who I don't keep in touch with, you will remember me because that is who I was.
It's nothing personal, really, against anyone on my list, I just feel like this is something I've got to do. I'm doing the same with my livejournal and a bunch of websites I go too daily. The only journal I will have that is open to friends only is ana_banana, but once again, it is strictly about Ana and The Beatles and beautiful Ringo. Feel free to comment to be added, but I do have rules and guidelines for you to abide by and remember the reasons for my journal. This is your chance to get rid of me if you don't like me.
Hyl*
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| Okay! |
[11 May 2005|10:02pm] |
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With A Little Help From My Friends |
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I am at Paula's aunts house...and I have decided to make my journals private. I'm tired of not being able to write and vent when I need too. I was ticked off today. My journal reflects that and I'm sorry if nobody likes it. I am leaving Beatlefans.com and everything except my journals. And my myspace blog will be public as well, but will be mostly for my friends at school. I am editing my list at myspace. Megan: Keep in touch @ myspace!!!!
If you MUST talk to me, you can call me: (706)-754-5643, or write me: Hilary Adams, PO Box 171, Turnerville, GA 30580, or e-mail me: beatlegirl44@hotmail.com, ringoluvsmemost@yahoo.com, thebeatlesaremylife@yahoo.co.uk, or join my myspace: www.myspace.com/beatle_chick_loves_ana.
Tiffany - I never said that our friendship did not matter. When I get ticked, I get ticked and you know that 'coz you are the same way. You keep saying we shouldn't talk online anymore and if that's so, then I guess I'll be leaving Beatlefans and everything. All I can say is that if you want to talk to me anymore, you'll have to call when you can because I won't continue to live my life in this crazy, useless internet fights of miscommunication. Sorry, but that's just how it is. I'm sick of worrying about getting online and thinking about what kind of a fight we are going to have that day.
So, I am dropping everything but my journals basically and I will put what I want in here, when I want to get my feelings out, no matter what. This journal is me. That's all I can say.
So this is my last entry. I will try to go back to being public very soon. You can keep me on your list or delete me, I don't care. I have to do this for the time being.
Hyl Starr
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| to the public: |
[24 Mar 2005|07:47pm] |
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my journal from here on out is friends only or private. if you are interested in becoming a part of my journal, please comment to be added and leave your name, age, state, and tell me if you are a beatles fan or not, and maybe tell me a bit about yourself and i will determine if you should be added. i am pretty lenient and will add anybody who wants to be added. so just comment and tell me who i'll be talking too. thanks a whole bunches,
the fool on the hyl starkey and the fab four
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| To Tiffany: |
[21 Mar 2005|01:59pm] |
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Tiffany - please check your e-mail.
Hyl Starr
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| OMG!!!!! |
[20 Mar 2005|08:55am] |
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PAUL'S TOUR SCHEDULE HAS NOT BEEN RELEASED BECAUSE HEATHER IS SUPPOSEDLY HAVING ANOTHER BABY!!!! OMG!!!! WHY NOW WHEN PAUL IS SUPPOSED TO TOUR???? I MEAN - IF THEY ARE HAVING ANOTHER CHILD, THEN OF COURSE I AM HAPPY FOR THEM...BUT WHY NOW WHEN I HAD SOMETHING TO HOLD ON TOO???? I HAD THAT HOPE AND IF THAT'S SHATTERED THEN ALSKDFJOASDUFLASDF!!!!
but deffo congrats to them if the rumor is true...paul will make a great dad - again :) i just hope he doesn't call of his tour...that would just make me want to die!!!!
hyl starr
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| Must be a quickie today!!!! |
[19 Mar 2005|10:52am] |
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Beatles Mixed - the tape Mandy sent me! |
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No entry today, well, this is an entry, but I don't have time to make it long!
I gotta run...Scarlet called me up and said, "Hey, my dad just bought out this man's junk shop...and he has boxes and boxes of records...and I already found like 4 Beatle albums and a Paul solo album...so if you help me pack up all of the junk in boxes to carry over to my dad's shop...I'll give you all the beatle things we can find..."
HECK YEAH! SO I WON'T BE ONLINE TODAY!!!!
Peace and Love,
Hyl Starr
PS - I'll check everyone else's journals when I get in tonight!!!! And do you think I should make my Greatest Journal with a BEATLES layout since this one is Ringo?
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| I'm gonna be a bassist like the dude on Ringo's album!!!! |
[18 Mar 2005|12:21pm] |
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Have I Told You Lately That I Love You? - Ringo Starr |
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I was listening to "Sentimental Journey" last night and the song, "Have I Told You Lately That I Love You" HAD THE MOST AMAZING BASS LINE...IT WAS SO FAST AND PERFECT AND JUMPY AND OMG I'm gonna learn how to play it :) By the way - reply link: "Sentimental Journey(s)" it is :)
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Lalalalalala!!!! ~singing~ I am in an upper mood today :) Let's see what there is to talk about today...
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First of all, I am fasting today (yes, again)...with Paula. We have a special sign. We take our right hand and do a sideways peace sign and then, with our left hand, we hold up a one finger, and put them together to make an "F" and then we go, "WHAT ARE WE DOING TODAY????" ~"F" sign on hand~ "FAST!" It's great. A great laugh. I am thinking of doing a two day fast. I dunno if I am going to the Venue tonight. I really want to stay home in complete silence and read my Beatles book. And then I'm going to catch up on my Beatles vinyls and listen to them. So I dunno what I'm going to do...probably stay home, lol!!!! Yes, I think I will. I will stay home this Friday.
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Anyways, so I'm just wanting to get home and play that bass...it's so fast though...I've deffo gotta train my fingers to fly!!!! I can make them fly on piano, but on bass, it's so sort of different! So, I am deffo going to go home, read my book, listen to my music, and PRACTICE my music. I've got like three songs to finish too and a demo to complete.
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I really don't have much to say today because it's pretty much been normal, y'know. I started a fan-fiction last night...I am pretty sure that there are many fan-fictions out there like this, but I am doing one where...The Beatles are not famous, they are just regular every day chaps in 1964 Liverpool, maybe London. I am positive this is not a new idea, but it is new to me and I thought of it last night when laying in bed, thinking about how our world would be different if The Beatles never came along. I started to scare myself, actually...A WORLD WITHOUT BEATLES???? But anyawys, me and Ringo live in a slummy house in Liverpool...and I wait up until 3 AM every morning just waiting for him to get home from his job in which he works awkward hours...and he doesn't get paid much...and we are just dreaming newlyweds, thinking of getting out and making ends meet in some way...it should be absolutely fasinating to me. It'll be a great story even though it's probably been done 100 times before. But this is new to me and I'll make my story completely personalized in the Hyl way :) I need to finish the billions of stories I have laying around before I start a new one *rolls eyes* But some of them just aren't...meant to be finished, I guess? lol. I'll get around to them. I'm the typical procrastinator.
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Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! :)
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I really think that is all. I need to visit other people's journals now 'coz I might not be online tonight!!!!
She loves The Beatles, yeah, yeah, yeah...
Hyl Starkey
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| "Oh dramatize! You're lucky to be here!" |
[17 Mar 2005|06:48pm] |
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Time for a small update about drama. I am so proud of meself - I got through 2/3 of my lines without mucking up once! Me and AJ started rehearsing and we were trying to get the emotion into it...and he like, kept grabbing my hands and stuff and I was being all whiney...and Mobley came to help us out and she was like, "YOU GUYS MUST DO THIS FOR THE CLASS!" SO, we had to act it out for our class. They really liked it :) Of course...when I rehearse with AJ, I can't help but to start laughing because I've never been in a relationship before in my life and now suddenly, on stage, I'm MARRIED? It's so sort of funny...and I'm just like, "OMG, I can't imagine being in this place in my real life..." but it's really great to act :) Me and AJ keep cracking up though because it's really funny to hear me get angry and whiney and it's so funny to watch him act nervous and jittery and laugh and stuff...so we've got to practice on our straight faces...lol...but everyone liked it and we got through 2/3 of it and we are proud :)
AJ said the sweetest thing to me today...he was like, "I went to an old vintage record store last night...and I looked for some Beatles vinyls for you. They didn't have any, but if I ever find any, I'll definitly get them for you." And I was like, "OMG..." ~Wipes tear~ It was deffo nice of him to say and think of me last night while looking through old vinyls. I feel crummy about taking stuff from people, even when they give it to me willingly...I really think I enjoy hearing that people actually keep me in mind when something Beatley comes up then actually giving it to me, you know? :) ~Deep breath~ It's more lovely to hear that you are on somebody's mind then to actually get a possession...:)
Anyways...
That was my update for the time being...I dunno if I'll be online tonight...I'll try to be, but my computer really does mess with my nerves..."He hasn't got any?"..."What?"..."Nerves." MY COMPUTER AT HOME TOOK THEM ALL AWAY!!!! Grrrrr!!!!
Yes...I think that's all. I really want to go home and listen to Ringo's "Beacoup of Blues" :)
Hyl Starr
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| Okie Dokie... |
[17 Mar 2005|06:48pm] |
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Beatles Covering Old US Rock Tunes... |
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I changed the comment links...tell me what you think? I kept Tiff's "Wish Upon A Starr"...:) And I changed the reply link to "Sentimental Journey(s)", a GREAT Ringo album...but then again, I was thinking and Ringo has a song on "Ringo The Fourth" called "Gypsies In Flight", so which is better for a comment reply link?
Sentimental Journey(s)
OR
Gypsies In Flight
????
Vote NOW! :)
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Anyways, I am rapidly flying through, "The Beatles: An Oral History". Tiff, you said you had this book, so I HIGHLY recommend you start reading it!!!! It is very descriptive, very, very, very overfilled with Beatles knowledge by people who knew The Beatles personally. I love learning new Beatles things :) Only, I don't like Pete Best's attitude in the book. He seems soooo self-centered and he's acting like it was all him. He's taking credit for things he didn't do. And what's more, he's like, "We wrote the songs and had the sound that captured the world."
Uh...okay, first of all, John/Paul/George wrote the songs...and sure, he was a part of the early Beatles, but in those early days, they did not capture the world. England, Germany, Scotland, yeah...but Pete Best was NOT Ringo. The Beatles did not technically capture the world until 1964 and Pete had been put out in the cold 2 years before that ever happened!!!! RINGO was the Beatles drummer that captured the world. You know what I'm saying? I mean, he was an early Beatle, yeah, but he's making it sound like HE was the drummer in 1964 instead of Ringo and I don't appreciate that. Then again...I dunno. But he seems so egotistical these days.
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Rachel posted on Beatlefans.com that Paul never talks about Linda anymore. I tried to think of something that Paul has said recently about Linda...and I was so shocked because Rachel was right. I haven't heard a thing about Linda in so long...and I am deeply hurt by this. I started crying here at school and I know what's gonna happen. People are going to ask me what's wrong and I'm going to have to go into seclusion and shove my nose in my book because I don't want them teasing me.
LINDA, YOU ROCK, AND YOU ARE FOREVER IN MY HEART AND MIND AND I WILL SPREAD YOUR MESSAGE!!!! Linda shall not be forgotten. I swear to you that.
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Hum bum mum tum dum drum
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Anyways...yeah! Notice how I always put "Anyways..." or "Anyoo" or "Anyroad" or something like that????
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Um...friend's entry, just so my friends know...
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I really can't think of anything to say today. "I'm So Tired" and I just want to go home. ~Sigh~ I am so glad tomorrow is Friday!!!!
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OH! I've always thought of Astrid being super confident and really not innocent...but in the book I am reading, she is talking about how she was totally shy and she never went anywhere near the Reeperbahn or the St. Pauli area because of all of the bad situations that went around there...and she was a really good girl who was into classical and jazz music...I've always thought of Astrid being really on top of the music scene then...but she totally wasn't...but Klaus talked her into going and she fell in love with The Beatles...and she talked about how she had to muster up the courage to ask them to photograph them...because she was frightened they'll say no!!!! So she finally asked them and photographed them at 12 noon because she only used day time film...very interesting. I so had the OPPOSITE image of Astrid than she really was...:) I want to be an Astrid. THAT IS SO CRUMMY!!!! IN THOSE DAYS, THERE WERE MUSIC CLUBS LIKE THAT WITH THE BEATLES AND IT WAS SO AMAZING and every weekend I go to the Venue where I totally don't relate to the bands and I just wish I could go to the Indra or the Top Ten or the Kaiserkeller or the Cavern or the Cashbah or the Jacaranda...but NOOOOO I have the Venue where I don't belong :( HOW I WISH I HAD A TIME MACHINE TO GO BACK IN TIME AND EXPERIENCE WHAT IS, IN 2005, NO MORE...
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OKAY. I am calm now. ~Sigh~ I feel a fan-fiction idea coming on strongly. That can help me deal with my emotions on being this way. Oh, how I was so born in the wrong era...
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As I think we all were...
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Anyways, I think I am okay now...
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Right. I love Ringo Starr and The Beatles, forever :)
PEACE AND LOVE AND BEATLEY DAYS,
Hyl Starkey :)
PS - Ringo was SUPER tiny in 1960...
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[17 Mar 2005|06:48pm] |
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"photograph" by ringo starr is on the radio...and i feel like busting into tears because his voice is SO beautiful. i dunno why i want to cry really...is it because this is the song i relate to george because he helped co-write it and it's perfectly describing his passing? or maybe because I LOVE RINGO STARR SO INCREDIBLY MUCH AND ALL I HAVE IS A PHOTOGRAPH AND I REALIZE HE'S NOT COMING BACK...since i seen him in concert, i've had him on my mind 24/7. heck, that's how it was before i seen him!!!! but since he stood there, three feet away, it's been so much different and "photograph" has become so much more of a song to me since he performed it...and then called me his "little garden of love"...
~sigh~ it'll be a night that i cry myself to sleep tonight...i feel a poem coming on. i feel like prince herbert on monty python's "the holy grail"...he gets emotional and wants to just SIIIIIIIIIIIIING...i just want to WRIIIIIIIITE a poem or a song...~sigh~
i love you dear mr. richard starkey mbe of liverpool, england.
nooooooow it's time to say goodnight, goodnight, sleep tight...
*hyl starr*
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[16 Mar 2005|04:56pm] |
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TIFFANY - THE LAYOUT LOOKS AMAZING!!!! I CANNOT THANK YOU ENOUGH FOR DOING THIS FOR ME!!!! I just have a question...can I change the comment links or are they set in stone for the layout? I like them, they are lovely, I am just wondering if I can change them? If not, that is fine, these are nice :) I really like "Wish Upon A Starr" :):):):) I do that every night!!!! THANKS SO MUCH :)
Hyl Starr
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| to my friends... |
[16 Mar 2005|02:49pm] |
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i posted my poem...but it's a friends only entry...! so sign in as my friend or whatnot to view it :) just so you know it's there!
hyl starr
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| ROLL UPPPP...ROLL UP FOR THE MYSTERY TOUR!... |
[16 Mar 2005|02:32am] |
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I want to go on a Magical Mystery Tour with The Beatles and Ringo's auntie.
Anyways...what to say say say..."half of what I say is meaningless..." Um, first of all, I guess I can say that I am thinking of returning to Beatlefans.com. Why? Because I just got through talking to Kathy...and I realize that I shouldn't feel the way I should about the board...that place, is still, a second home to me. I have been a memeber there for three years and I really, really don't want to leave...the people are great...and like I told Kathy:
"I am trying to 'get back' to my 'state of mind' of 'peace and love'..."
And I am most likely going to return to www.beatlefans.com because it is a very important place to me. That was the very first Beatle board I ever joined online...and even when I dropped out of everything else online, I remained there...because I love Steve and Fred and Alex and Dani and ohhhh, I love everybody and I am just realizing that I love everybody there and it is a very, very positive place...and I have been blinded so long by personal and emotional problems, I have forgot that...but...
NOT ANYMORE!!!! I am beginning to return to how I was before everything in my real life took over...and I am going to return to who I was...and I am going to regain everything that made me ME...and beatlefans.com is a major part of me and I am going to return. I've been thinking about this for three days...and my decision is set :)
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Anyways, ~yawn~ I am so sleepy. I really didn't want to come to school today, but I needed to make my contact sheet in photography (we are now on digital photography) and my pic turned out GREAT. I so want to post it here...if there is a way, I'll find out how! Unless ~grin~ someone wants to tell me HOW? :) ANYWAYS...yeah...but, here I am...and I really needed to rehearse my lines with AJ today. I am going to make a Senior documentary video...with all of my friends and classmates in it...and then...I'm gonna send it tooooooo...TIFFANY! Because I owe her a video of me. And also starring in this dazzling motion documentary will be...YELLOW SUBMARINE COW! The most weirdest thing to see when you first open your eyes in the morning!
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Today, I am craving Subway. By the way - I ended up getting my $5.00 Burger King Especially Made Salad yesterday. And a diet coke. It was greatish :) And now I want a 240 calorie veggie sub...hmmmm...:) Yummy. But the guilt is AWFUL!!!! If I don't eat the lite potato chips with it, I'll be okay. I can have a sandwich...can't I? It's okay to eat a sandwich, right???? IT WON'T MAKE ME FAT, WILL IT???? No...no, it won't oh yes it will :( ~sigh~ I'll have to debate on this. I've got to work on my food cravings. I am gaining weight. Everyone says I'm not, but HELLO!!!! I think I should know. It's MY body.
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Headache, headache, headache still. I need to add Megan to friends. I am about to go visit everybody's journals now. I have been reading your journals, and I try to reply most of the time, but once again, my computer at home shuts down at random, but I try. So I am going to read the journals and reply to your entries :)
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Here is a site I'd like to keep here for safe keeping...feel free to check it out:
http://www.instantkarma.com/johnbooks2.html
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And I wrote a poem that I'd like to share here. I'll type it up asap...I don't have it with me at this moment...do I???? ~thinking~ No...I don't :( But I'll get that typed up here. But in the meantime, here is a beautiful quote of work by ours truly - John Lennon :)
"As usual, there is a great woman behind every idiot." :) John, I know you were talking about Yoko and NO you aren't an IDIOT :) Wait a minute...YOKO???? WHO IS YOKO???? Man, he was SO talking about Tiffany...;)
I love quotes so much...John had so many "words of wisdom"...I love it, love it, love it!!!!
Here is a quote by Paul:
"If slaughterhouses had glass walls, everyone would be a vegetarian."
OH PAULIE, YOU ARE SO RIGHT!!!! PROUD VEGAN HERE, BABY! :)
OHOHOHOHOH!!!! AND A GEORGE QUOTE:
"We were the Spice Boys."
YOU GO, GEORGE!!!! OMG, I LOVE YOU!!!!
And Ringo...PRECIOUS RINGO WHOM I LOVE SO DEAR:
"I'm not going to say anything because nobody believes me when I do."
BOO BOO YAH! I BELIEVE EVERY WORD YOU SAY!!!! :)
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~Catching breath~ Okay, that was Hyl's fun with quotes today :) Seems like I had something else to say? Oh yeah...Cynthia's book "A Twist Of Lennon" (2...the sequel...something like that) will be released in September.
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Seems like I still had something to say. lol...I'll add Megan to friends now and post whatever later if I remember...if there WAS anything...lol :)
Hyl Starr
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| dream, dream away...magic in the air...was magic in the air? |
[15 Mar 2005|01:27pm] |
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hey everybodoy,
i stayed home from school today 'coz i woke up with a headache - you know the headaches that feel like your head is being eaten away. so, because i had nothing really important to do at school today, i'm like, "heck, whatever". so i stayed home from school. and now, i am at my daddy's office, drinking a diet dr. pepper. they are right. it DOES taste just like the real thing.
anyways, you guys should really check out my other journal:
http://www.greatestjournal.com/users/beatle_anavegan/
because there, i have over 100 beatle avatars downloaded and i use like a different one for each entry...here, i can only have three. but anyways, you guys should go there just to see my avatars! they are all from the let it beatle fan-site. i downloaded...oh, i dunno, like all of them? anyways, lol :) i went...avatar crazy :)
anyoo, i am craving one of those huge salads from burger king...you know, the one i have to go and say, "hey, i'm vegan. make mine special." then they have to like...go back and actually make it instead of taking it out of the fridge like all of the pre-packaged ones with cheese and crap...and i know they won't cheat me 'coz my friend kailey makes them for me and she KNOWS i'd like...kick butt if they put cheese and crap on it. gross, no, i'm not eating any of that animal hormone crap.
anyways...my head still hurts ~gulps down more diet dr. pepper~
i took that virtual tour of mendips that tiffany had posted at her journal. it's very, very interesting...now i want to live in that house. it's amazing. i remember when my friend aimee from england applied for the job of tour guide. they were quite rude about it...they never called her back. people could at least have the decency to call and say, "you didn't get the job, we're sorry...". she waited by the phone for like three weeks when she was like, "they aren't calling me back, are they?" really, they need to be like...nice. lol.
anyways, i wonder how aj davis will get through drama on his own. heck, he's left me by myself to learn my lines plenty of times. maybe he needs to sit alone for a day. he needs to memorize his lines!!!! every time i am with him, he practices a page and then turns to me and starts in with his dead baby jokes. omg - i hate those things...he told me a joke that went like this the other day that i absolutely was like, "omg, that's so mean..." it went like this:
"what do you call a white baby with wings? an angel. what do you call a black baby with wings? a bat."
OMG. that is so rude...aj isn't racist, he just gets told all of these jokes and he's like john lennon - he has a very weird sense of humor...i hated it because i started laughing when he told me this - not because of the joke but because his laugh is so funny. then i told a joke and he started laughing and i was like, "man, that laugh was sooooo fake and you make me feel stupid!" he stopped laughing and was like, "this IS my real laugh!" ~oops~ "well, you sounded different just a second ago!" and he said, "that's coz i was tickled!!!!"
lol, tickled. that made me laugh. he's a great person...but his jokes are soooo mean, lol.
anyways...yeah. i'm actually thinking of something to write about now. um...um...here is a john lennon song that i absolutely love:
GIMME SOME TRUTH
lennon - 1971 "imagine"
i'm sick and tired of hearing
things
from uptight-short sighted-
narrow minded hypocritics
all i want is the truth
just give me some truth
i've had enough of reading
things
by nuerotic-pyschotic-
pig headed politicians
all i want is the truth
just give me some truth
no short haired-yellow bellied
son of tricky dicky
is gonna mother hubbard
soft soap me
with just a pocketful of hope
money for dope
money for rope
i'm sick to death of seeing
things
from tight lipped-
condescending -mommies little
chauvinists
all i want is the truth
just give me some truth
i've had enough of watching
scenes
of schizophrenic - ego - centric
- paranoic - prima - donnas
all i want is the truth
just give me some truth
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BOO YAH!!!! that is so how i feel about politics. did you know that the government shot down the plane on september 11th that crashed in pennsylvania? why? to spare the white house. OKAY. let me get this straight - the government...shot down a plane, killing nearly 100 people...to save A BULIDING? oh yeah, that's SOOOO great of them, isn't it? oh yeah, they really love their people. sounds to me like they love their architecture more. i don't give a rats butt HOW many years that building has been around. i don't care the history of it. all i know is that nearly 100 souls were lost because they cared more about the building. don't get me wrong - i know there were people in the white house. but they knew that's where the plane was going and they could have gotten everybody out of it. and i know that the nearly 100 people would have died anyways when it crashed into the building - but now i really do believe that the government is responsible for their deaths.
i am still haunted by 9/11. it's never left me.
and how about this john lennon song? someone once told me, "john lennon is so depressing...i mean, 'my mummy's dead'? REALLY!" what they didn't understand was that john lennon needed a way to deal with his feelings without resorting to looking like he was a weak and scared man. he did this through his music. his music was his way of releasing his feelings. that person did not understand john lennon. i do understand him and i am like him - i put out my feelings in my music too.
MY MUMMY'S DEAD
lennon - plastic ono band (i have this on lp)
My Mummy's Dead
I can't get it through my head
Though it's been so many years
My Mummy's Dead
It's hard to explain
So much Pain
I could never show it
My Mummy's Dead
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here is one more john lennon song that define my feelings right now. you make the connection between me and this song:
ISOLATION
lennon - plastic ono band
People say we got it made don't they know we're so afriad
we're afraid to be alone, everbody got to have a home
Isolation
Just a boy and a little girl
trying to change the whole wide world
Isolation
All the world is a little town
everybody trying to put us down
Isolation
I don't expect you to understand
after you caused so much pain
But the again you're not to blame
your just a human, a victim of the insane
We're afrain of everyone, afraid of the sun
Isolation
The Sun will never disappear
but the world my not have many years
Isolation
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getting on a brighter topic...uh, how about a ringo starr song?
OOOO!!!! HIS "SENTIMENTAL JOURNEY" ALBUM! here is a great track from that album...with banjo :)
BYE BYE BLACKBIRD
Mort Dixon and Ray Henderson
Pack up all my cares and woes,
Here i go, singing low,
Bye, bye, blackbird.
Where somebody waits for me,
Sugar is sweet, so is she,
Bye, bye, blackbird.
No one here can love and understand me,
Oh, what hard luck stories they all hand me.
Make my bed and light the light,
I'll arrive late tonight,
Blackbird, bye, bye.
Pack up all my cares and woes,
Here i go, singing low,
Bye, bye, blackbird.
Where somebody waits for me,
Sugar is sweet, so is she,
Bye, bye, bye, bye, blackbird.
I said, no one here can love and understand me,
Oh, what hard luck stories they all hand me.
So, make my bed and light the light,
I'll arrive late tonight,
Blackbird, bye, bye.
Make my bed and light the light,
I'll arrive late tonight,
Blackbird,
I said blackbird,
I said blackbird,
Oh, blackbird, bye, bye.
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RINGO HAS LIKE - PERFECT VOICE QUALITY FOR OLD 1940 HITS :)
i better go...i want to do some research and stuff on the beatles :)
peace and love,
hyl starr
oh - ps...i'm going to post some pictures at my other journal of the beatles. go there and see them! feel free to reply to them too there. i would do them here, but i don't know how.
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tiffany - since you are back to reading my journal, i just want to say that i am sorry if any of my entries were hurtful to you. they were written during the fights we've had and i wrote what i felt and things such as that. that is what a journal is for. but know that we are okay and none of that stuff goes anymore. i was angry and hurt when i wrote these entries, so i hope they don't upset you.
also - you've got the paula/mobley fasting thing WAY wrong. i explained below in the comment you left. but you've got me figured out wrong there...i wasn't getting mad at you for something and then letting paula and mobley do it. NO WAY. i explained below. but i am not angry.
hyl starr
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THANKS TO HEATHER AND KAILEY WHO BOUGHT ME A YELLOW SUBMARINE COW!!!! it's the most amazing thing i've ever seen in my life...!!!! i must get a pic to post it here in my journal if that's possible. it's AMAZING. a yellow submarine cow. imagine that :) *hugs* to kailey and heather :)
hyl starr
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my secret is out. i found out last night that it's BEEN out for a month or so.
i feel so violated, so invaded, and so incredibly angry.
i told my sister that all she had to do was confess that she snooped through my sketchbook. i said, "i won't be angry, i won't yell or be mad. just confess."
it took her forever...but she said, "i did, i'm sorry."
I DO NOT SNOOP THROUGH HER STUFF...I DO NOT SNOOP THROUGH HER STUFF BECAUSE I RESPECT HER PRIVACY!!!! I DO NOT DO THAT, AND I FEEL SORRY FOR HER THAT SHE DOESN'T RESPECT MY PRIVACY!!!! i feel sorry for you, megan, my sister the backstabber who i can no longer trust.
but then again - what privacy DO i have? she's read my fan-fictions, she's snooped through my journals, and now, my sketchbook.
this may not seem like a big deal to anybody - "OMG, you're sketchbook, get over it! so what, she's looked at what you draw."
you just have no idea what is in that sketchbook. my sister didn't respect my privacy and she snooped through my life. i have these notebooks and sketchbooks to hold my personal thoughts and fears in. i started my sketchbook to work MY PROBLEMS OUT ON MY OWN WITHOUT GETTING ANYONE ELSE INVOLVED.
and she went and invaded my privacy because she felt so important about knowing i have a secret, she felt she had the right.
well, she DIDN'T. THAT WAS MY PERSONAL PROPERTY WITH MY PERSONAL THOUGHTS. it's illegal.
and she's raped me of the only sense of privacy and security i had. my skethbook and journals are my only sense of privacy. and she's taken that away. i feel so public, so violated, so invaded. i feel fake and like i am being watched 24/7 now. i feel so open and i don't want to be. not with this, not now.
NOT ONLY THAT - BUT SHE'S SHOWED IT TO MY PARENTS, SHE'S TOLD HER FRIENDS AND HER PEN-PALS...SHE HAS TOLD MY FRIENDS!!!! MY FRIENDS!!!! AND NOW EVERYBODY KNOWS BECAUSE MY STUPID SISTER FELT THAT SHE HAD THE RIGHT TO GO AND TELL EVERYBODY THIS!!!! SHE FELT SOOOOOOO IMPORTANT ABOUT KNOWING THIS ABOUT ME THAT SHE FELT SHE HAD THE RIGHT TO GO AND BLAB TO THE FREAKIN' WORLD THAT I HAVE THOUGHTS LIKE THAT!!!! AND NOW MY PARENTS THINK I AM CRAZY, MY FRIENDS ARE TELLING THEIR FRIENDS AND I HAVE RUMORS GOING ABOUT ME AT SCHOOL, AND NOW MY PERSONAL LIFE HAS BEEN THROWN INTO THE OPEN LIME LIGHT ALL BECAUSE I HAVE FREAKIN' SISTER WHO CAN'T HOLD HER FREAKIN' CURIOSITY IN BECAUSE SHE THINKS SHE IS A PART OF EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING!!!!
WELL HERE IS A NOTE FOR YOU, MEGAN - YOU ARE NOT A PART OF EVERYTHING AND YOU NEED TO GET OVER YOURSELF!!!! YOU HAVE RUINED MY LIFE BECAUSE YOU'VE DONE THIS TO ME AND I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT YES, I AM ANGRY!!!! I HAVE DONE NOTHING BUT RESPECTED YOUR PRIVACY SINCE DAY ONE AND I WOULD NEVER DO THIS TO YOU AND NOW, YOU HAVE TAKEN SOMETHING THAT I CAN CONTROL MYSELF AND TOLD EVERYONE ON THE FACE OF THIS FREAKIN' PLANET!!!! YOU HAVE BROUGHT PEOPLE THAT DO NOT NEED BE A PART OF THIS INTO MY SITUATION!!!! I JUST WISH THAT YOU KNEW WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO ME BECAUSE OF THIS...I AM SO UTTERLY MAD AND I DON'T THINK I CAN TRUST YOU ANYMORE!!!! I WILL NOT TELL YOU ANYTHING AND YOU KNOW WHAT - THIS PROBLEM I HAVE HAD - I HAVE GOTTEN OVER IT TO AN EXTENT!!!! I HAVE BEEN EATING MUCH, MUCH BETTER THAN I USED TO DO AND NOW GUESS WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO ME? YOU HAVE MADE ME FEEL 10 TIMES WORSE ABOUT MYSELF, BECAUSE EVERYBODY IN THIS WORLD KNOWS ABOUT MY PROBLEMS NOW AND I FEEL LIKE A PUBLIC DISPLAY, LIKE A ROBOT WITH NO SENSE OF PRIVATE LIFE BECAUSE YOU GO THROUGH EVERYTHING I DO!!!! AND THEN, YOU MAKE IT BE KNOWN TO EVERYBODY THAT YOU HAVE THIS INFORMATION, DON'T YOU???? YOU DON'T DO THIS BECAUSE YOU ARE CONCERNED ABOUT ME, THE ONLY REASONS YOU'VE WENT AND TOLD EVERYBODY IS BECAUSE #1 - YOU WANT A GOSSIP TOPIC, LIKE USUAL AND #2 - YOU WANT TO FEEL IMPORTANT, DON'T YOU? YOU WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW THAT YOU ARE A SNOOP WHO HAS THE POWER OF STEALING THE DEEPEST, DARKEST SECRETS OF PEOPLE WHO HAS DONE NOTHING BUT RESPECT YOUR PRIVACY!!!!
i really pity you if that's how you think you are going to make your friends. i really pity you if that's how you think "compassion" and "respect" is defined.
well all i am saying is that from here on, i will not discuss anything with you, megan. i will hide everything i have and i will have to start over on my private possessions. this time, you will not breakthrough. i want you to stay out of my life. this was something that i could control...because of that sketchbook that you've shared with the world, i was able to surface my true feelings and turn my habits around. i started to get better, but now, i feel so alone, so cheated, and i feel like you've backstabbed me. you've done more damage than you can imagine. i have seeped more blood over this than i have ever seeped in my life. i really thought i could trust you, you are my SISTER. i feel ashamed to have ever believed in you like that. you should know better than to do that to your own flesh and blood.
thanks a lot for NOTHING.
i'm not saying anything else. i am so utterly disturbed at this and very, very upset. but you know what? i don't care because this is something i can control and even though you've shared this information on my problem with the world, i don't have to tell anybody anything. i don't have to let anybody in on this. and i won't. not even you. you don't have THAT power, do you megan? the power to control my eating habits or the power to MAKE me tell people and let them in on my "inner circle" of thoughts and habits. don't you feel powerless now? now what are you going to gossip about? absolutely nothing. welcome to the nothing side. you appear to me to be a nobody.
and don't think i'm letting my emotions get the best of me here. don't think i'm acting on impulse and saying things i'll regret later. i've thought and thought about how i was going to word this journal entry and you know what? i was just being honest. i've cooled down since you told me last night, so it's not on impulse. it's pre-meditated now. and i still feel so incredibly...offeded in the violated sense.
"you've got me wondering how i've lost your friendship...but i see it in your eyes...though i'm beside you i can't carry the lame for you..."
hyl starr
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